NEW CHALLENGE!

copying ma girl btils, the fastest dang 30 day challenge you've eva seeeeennnnn
cant sleep, here goes!

Day 1 - A picture of yourself with 15 facts 

1. i really do enjoy long walks on the beach

2. i have never watched a sunset, and want to badly

3. if you date me, i will make you give me a back massage every time we hang out

4. i never thought i'd miss high school

5. my life consists of no drama

6. i could sleep for 24hrs, and still be tired when i wake up

7. at this moment, i want to adopt a kid because i don't want to push something the size of a watermelon out of my vagina

8. i want to die my hair brown but my mom won't let me

9. i'm a partial ginge - day walker = soul

10. i listen to songs on repeat a lot when they remind me of specific people

11. i eat chicken every day

12. i've become the biggest Facebook creep while at university

13. i have worn this key necklace every day since i bought it in january, only taking it off for basketball games

14. i tend to over-think and over-analyze every possible situation

15. i want to be a burlesque dancer after seeing the movie

Day 2 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Shelby Kimberly Ann DeSousa - since t-ball.. 6 years old?

Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Teen Mom! I missss it, please come back. And my faves, Macy & Bentley <3

Day 4 - A picture of your night

I am done all my assignments for the semester, i did absolutely nothing tonight for once!

Day 5 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 6 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

adriana lima, SUCH A BABE - she's flawless

Day 7 - A picture of your most treasured item

i don't have a picture of my whole family, so this will suffice :) 

Day 8 - A picture that makes you laugh

prob one of the drunkest nights of my life, 100% don't remember this.

Day 9 - A picture of the people who have gotten you through the most

my toughest times, these bitches have stuck by me <3

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with

gabrielle shaw - we end up being the drunkest girls & doing the funniest things

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

absofuckinglutely disgusting

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Just the Tastiest!

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

serenade me, please!!!!!!!!! you SWOON me keith, toooo goood

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

hehehe momma, gracie & half pint

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

grow old with the person i fall in love with (accurate picture i know, white girl with a ghetto booty)

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

dave walker - teacher & friend

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

wilfred laurier universityyyy

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

thiiiick thighs yo

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little

jen & i - excuse the messy hair

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

egypt! i'll make it one day

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

just a stage..... brit you will LOL

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

saying nooo, im a pushover

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

really good book, read it for school!

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

world hunger - i can't imagine having to live with no food

Day 25 - A picture of your day

finished my essay, last assignment of the semester! :)

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

my babies, love em soo much

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

my fasha & i

lmao came across this and couldnt not use it.. lookin like a boy, hottest day of my life, check out my sunburn! mexico '10

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

SO FUCKING DISCUSTING AHH

Day 29 - A picture of someone you miss

lmfaoooo aweful pic, floridaaaa 2007? miss yew madddz

Day 30 - A picture that can always make you smile

we're just so happy in it, make me happy looking at it

well there it is! this made me look thru old photos on fbook and stuff.. made me miss a lot of people :(

ah well, that's it for now

ta-ta bitches

ten ways to WIN my HEART?

second last day!

1. don't lie
2. give me back massages (seriously, if ya want me - DO IT)
3. call for no reason - just to say hello.
4. don't buy me flowers, they're nice but they die. I'd rather just have clothes or food.
5. don't cheat - why be together if you want someone else.
6. trust me, i'm with you because i want to be - i have guy FRIENDS.
7. take me on dates, be spontaneous - i like just hanging out, but not ALL the time.
8. get along with my family - if they don't like you, it's not going to work out.
9. make me laugh
10. don't be clingy, i like time with my friends & you should hang out with your friends a lot too.

seriously,  i don't think any of those are that difficult?
i'm not looking for a relationship right now though... too busy!
but hey, when you're not lookin', you never know what you may stumble upon ;)

<3

ten of your favourite songs!

i have been looking forward to this post since i noticed it on the first day of the challenge! so here goes, its gonna be difficult for me to pick just ten!! (these are in no order whatsoever!)

1. down - jay sean
2. don't stop believing - journey
3. the salt water room - owl city
4. the listening - lights
5. then - brad paisley
6. i'll be - edwin mccain
7. tappin' out - mario
8. i want it that way - backstreet boys
9. juicy - biggie smalls
10. stereo love - edward maya ft alicia

i definitely recommend all of these songs, if you haven't already heard them!
<3

ten items you CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT/ten IMPORTANT people

sorry for the lack of blogging lately, i worked all weekend and just completely forgot to blog!
so to continue on our "ten" challenge: ten items you can't live without

1. cellphone
2. macbook
3. ipod
4. tv
5. sweatpants
6. sleep (not really an item, but i can't function properly without at least 9hrs/day lol)
7. ketchup chips
8. mashed potatoes
9. chicken fingers (literally, i would die from a lack of protein)
10. my fam & close friends

& since i've been slacking,
we'll do two from the list today..
so now, 10 important people!

1. mom
2. dad
3. amanda, mike & half pint, gracie (they count as one)
4. jen
5. laura
6. brittany
7. morgan
8. angie
9. sabrina
10. gabby

theres are my top tenners! (well technically - top 13) <3
couldn't imagine living without any of these top ten!

on to the weekend..
was a complete fail! friday night, got my costume but didnt hang out with shelby cause she got food poisoning from freakin wendy's! saturday i worked all day (training- worst thing ever), sat night was supposed to chill with a whole bunch of ppl but all ended up busy or bailing, and sunday i worked again and had to stay 2 and a half hours late because two people called in sick.. wasn't pleased but i made an extra 25 bucks.. so i can eat out once this week maybe! lol how pathetic is that! i didnt come back to school until yesterday night because yesterday i voted (for the first time, proud?) and went to visit my grandma with my mom :)
all in all it was a very uneventful weekend, but now that im thinking about it, i didnt really mind - it was nice to just relax after my midterms and hectic few weeks!
<3

tenWISHES?

10 day challenge!

todays assignment: ten wishes..

this sounds a little difficult, here goes..

1. to win enough money so that my whole family is set & i can donate to world causes

2. to fall madly in love, after just having some fun of course - so before i die

3. that i do good in school this year (and the next 3 years obvi)

4. that i get a successful job after graduating

5. that i find a full-time job for the summer!

6. that my dad retires before he turns 90 (hehe)

7. that i can provide for my parents when they cant for themselves anymore

8. to be able to go on vacation whenever i want to

9. to make an impact so that i will be remembered when i die

10. to have a happy life :)

who the fuck am i, miss america? haha

that was a random one..

I wrote my sociology midterm this morning! feeling fairly confident, considering i was up studying until 3am! hopefully i ace it :)

Going home today, when my mom gets off work! hopefully she hurries up, i want some friggin mcdicks!

Going shopping for my halloween costume (finally) tonight, perhaps with bigMAC! should be a goodtime for sure! then chillin with my girl, hopefully that works out! workin at ct all weekend as well, making some mulah - def needed! my bank account is dwindling awayyyyyy, wah! i feel bad for asking my parents for money now.. soo looks like ill be working tons, whenever i can! hello xmas at ct ;)

sat night, chillin with some peeps that i havent in a while, jl! cant wait, its alllways a goodtime! woooo

thats all for nowww

<3

teN ThingS You wanT to Say to ONE perSon.

since i skipped yesterday, i figured that i would blog twice today to make up for it!
sooo0o0o0o0o, ten things you want to say to one person?
how about we do, 10 things you want to say to 2 people.. that would work better. (5 to each)

firstFIVE,
5. i still feel bad
4. you deserve the best
3. i wasn't honest
2. i wish you the best
1. im sorry

SECONDfive
5. you've really fucked with my mind
4. it still hurts
3. i thought i was over you
2. i still get excited talking to you
1. i miss you


reading those over, i sound pretty fucked up? lol
betcha you'll guess who each are on the first try... maybe?


OH & i know some of my soc. stuff! woohoo, i might not fail ;)
AND IN ONE HOUR FORTYFIVE MINUTES TIME
jshore finale, sad to see it go.. wtf am i supposed to watch on thursday nights now? but man am i excited, looks FULL of the dramz!
yeah juicy yeahhhh

<3 ta-ta for now bitches

teN thinGs yoU H8

ten things that i hate ehhhhh
lets go!

1. when people text you, you answer & then they don't text back
2. pathological liars
3. bananas
4. when you have nothing to drink during you're meal
5. being too hot to sleep
6. having cold feet (literally)
7. when they play repeats instead of new episodes of shows i watch RELIGIOUSLY (srsly, fuck off)
8. tim horton's hot chocolate
9. writing essays
10. when my mom buys extra bread and puts it in the freezer (fucking disgusting)

on another note..
soc exam tmo? fuck eh... maybe i'll start studying hahaha my bad.

oh AND
HOW PUMPED AM I FOR HALLOWEEN
you have no idea ;)
i think i've narrowed it down to two costumes, what do ya think ?


a csi agent
http://www.spirithalloween.com/product/dg-csi-celia-fate-medium/

 or

 a mile high flight attendant?
http://www.spirithalloween.com/product/dg-mile-high-medium/

i tried to get the pictures to upload, but it just failed hard

oh AND jersey shore finale tonight?!
aw yeahhhhhhh finale yeah.

that is all, too pumped!

<3

10 Things You Love

Continuation of the 10 Day Challenge

Day 02: 10 Things You Love

1. my family
2. my friends
3. half pint
4. gracie
5. my macbook pro
6. my apartment
7. my school
8. Facebook
9. new music
10. blogging ;)

My day has been boring so far! I was painfully tired this morning and kept nodding off in my Poli. Sci. class. I came home and had an amazing 4 hr nap. It was the best decision of my life. I then went to my US history lecture and it ended half an hour early. Then I got a delicious Harvey's burger for dinner (yea I know, since when do I eat burgers? - Had a random ass craving & lemme tell you, it was mothafuckin tasty!)

I asked my mom today as well if I can drive to Kingston on the Friday on Halloween weekend, & its sounding good so far! Can't wait ;)

that's all for nowwww <3

15 things

I've decided to legit do this 10 day challenge here on my blog,
so here goes:

soo ten things about me? hm..

1. i am currently in university for Political Science.

2. i wish i could change a lot of things in my life right now, but that's just me being selfish

3. i work at canadian tire every other weekend

4. i feel bad that my parents are paying so much money for me to go here

5. i have learned who my true friends are since i've left high school

6. im starting to wish i went to school where at least one of my close friends went

7. i have hardly eaten in 4 days because i sleep all day & then forget to make food

8. i miss basketball & the girls i used to see at least twice a week

9. apparently it's hard for me to talk about myself because i cant think of 10 things

10. i'm fairly new to blogging, started a while ago but have just gotten back into it

there ya go!

that was hardest than i thought it was going to be? haha

i'm really going to try and do one of these every day though :)

on another night,

i met these guys with my friend kim that look like they just walked off the set of jersey shore

legitmately, im not even exaggerating

& they were ballin, one dropped three bills at the bar that night! haha (thanks for the drinks ;) )

but now they're texting me all the time, and wanna chill!

hahahha my bad, guess drunk me is a BIT too friendly!

thats all for now <3

just got back to the loo & read my post from last night
oooh how drunk words are sober thoughts lol my bad!
also realized that neither btils or sloe has blogged, nothing to read :(

anywhooo - how bout some beats? diggin' these!!

put you in a song - keith urban
last friday night - katy perry
peacock - katy perry (so funny)
please don't go - mike posner
better than her - matisse ft akon
can't stop partying - weezer ft lil wayne
dirty talk - wynter gordon (old but still a fave: makes me wanna dance everytime!)


on another note,
thanksgiving dinn tonight, SO TASTY!
loved a little night with the fam,
2 midterms coming up this week though :s ... should be interesting!
hopefully all goes well :)

in a surprisingly good mood? it's lovely.
i could reallly goo for a ginger molasses cookie from starbs right about now! i'll pick 'er up tmo on the way to classs!

that's all for tonight folks <3

change

i feel like a lot has changed in the past week.
i dont know what it is - maybe seeing everyone again at commencement? reality check?
at least i can say, i will most likely never see 3/4 of those people again.
is it sad that i'm okay with that?
i tried to be friends with as many people as i could over my four years of high school,
but its over now. we're all starting our own new journeys, going our separate ways.. and i'm okay with that.
its almost as if i've accepted that high school is just another phase of life that we go through.
& we might make some friends that will last longer than the 4 years itself.. sad thing is, as much as you don't want to admit it, you can probably count the ones you'll talk to on a regular basis from now on, easily on both your hands. at least i know i can.
& i've come to the point now where i'm okay with that.....

this weekend was commencement/thanksgiving.
i dont have my family thanksgiving meal until tomorrow though, looking forward to that!

i have dranken every night since i've been home, too much beer for one weekend. never again.
i worked too, and things couldn't have been more awkward.
its actually true, you don't really know what you have until it's gone. & i 100% got that this weekend, without a doubt in my mind. i can't make sense of how i'm actually feeling about the situation?
i was relieved after it happened, i felt like there were less things that i had to worry about. but now, i kind of feel lonely... i guess i just wish i could have my cake & eat it too? or not have my cake & eat it though, in this case? so much confusion... could be the beer.

on a separate note, i feel like the biggest idiot, so much for regular basis.
i'd say i'm over it, but i try not to lie. soon hopefully? only time will tell i suppose.
i just wish i could have a fresh start with everything, but i got one a month now, & that didn't change anything. i think i'm still caught up in my high school world.. so from now on, it is my goal to move on. to get over everything bad associated with the past four years. let's goooo

i havent stopped typing for the past 2 minutes, non-stop. i just checked the clock. wow, i need to blog more often huh? (oh you fancy, huh?) hehe

to take my mind off things, i decided to copy this from a friend off facebook, thought it could be fun? here goes:

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your favourite night
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most crazy things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture and a letter
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss


its supposed to be done over a 30 day periodical, but im going to do it in one post...


so....


(1). 15 facts:
1. i love my family more than anything in the whole entire world.
2. i would rather live with my family than without it at this point in my life.
3. i wish i knew more people at my university.
4. i miss basketball.
5. newly single.
6. probably one of the most indecisive people you will ever meet.
7. i eat like a vegetarian when i'm at school.. i have eaten chicken nuggets three times in the past month, that concludes my meat summary.
8. i am too lazy to walk to buy food, so i make something. it's what i call: my laziness diet
9. i am jealous of all the new friends everyone has seemed to have made at their new schools, i still haven't found that bff...
10. i need to start going to the gym....
11. i think i have a problem, i struggle to make a 10am class. how the hell did i ever make an 8am one? thank god for create your own schedule.
12. i have midterms on tuesday and wednesday and haven't started studying yet.
13. i miss being close to the teachers at md & just having life chats all the time.
14. i was chosen for a 2-grand scholarship on friday night, & i am still in awe.
15. i am considering transferring to london? maybe i should start studying if i want a chance @ western


(2) person i've been closest the longest with: Shelby DeSousa
(3) favourite show: teen mom
(4) favourite night: go-karting with the fam for the bdays last week <3 so fun
(5) favourite memory: pwm days
(6) trade for a day: kim kardashian
(7) most treasured: half pint & gracie
(8) makes me laugh: russell peters
(9) people that have gotten through to me the most: bt
(10) person i do most crazy things with: gs
(11) hate: bananas
(12) love: mashed potatoes
(13) fave artist/band: atm artist: keith urban, band: the fray or the scripts
(14) never imagine life without: family
(15) before i die: fall deeply in true love
(16) inspiration: ian jones
(17) huge impact recently: realizing who actually cares about you.
(18) biggest insecurity: l & n
(19) picture & a letter - dont understand lol 
(20) would love to travel to: dominican, jamaica, bahamas, europe, australia, anywhereee
(21) wish i could forget: bh
(22) wish i was better at: focus & public speaking
(23) fave book: pll series
(24) wish i could change: endings
(25) my day: work/drink beer
(26) means a lot: fam & doggies
(27) whole fam = L<3ve
(28) afraid of: sharks
(29) always make me smile: squids drawings from europe '08
(30) miss: sd, bh, dw, csw, af, cs, sl


there it is!
maybe i'l actually do the pictures part one day..
well see haha


anyways, super long!
(that's what she said ;) ) hefhehehe


feels like i've gotten a lot off my chest.
goin to bed, ... drunk.


i'll update with songs tomorrow <3


PEACE & LOVE BITCHES

did ya miss me?

bet you thought i wasnt coming back.. well you thought wronggg
its been a while, i know
i've been a little busy, alright
graduating highschool & moving for university life & such
while ive been gone, things have been good.
stressful & full of CHANGE. but everyone needs a little change every once in a while, right?

im finally adjusting and getting used to life as it is now.. university is completely different than highschool, and dont get me wrong - i love the freedom.. but im starting to miss highschool, knowing everyone, and having a really good relationship with most of your teachers. (walker, saliba, smiley, hamilton - how i miss thee)

here, you're just a face in a crowded room of 300. you're just a 9-digit number. just another essay to mark. we have all this freedom, but we're not even recognized.. and i came to a small university..
i cant even imagine going to one even bigger than this - hey, i grew up in milton: what do you expect?
i went from knowing almost everyone by name, to knowing less than 10 people, in three months. talk about reality check?

my classes this semester are -
Cultural Anthropology: kill me now, prof has a polish accent & idgaf about this bs
Archaeology: prof is an adorable old guy, really loves his work.. but the material, DRY.
Political Science; the modern state: its interesting, but is it bad that i frequently use dictionary.com because i dont know what a lot of the words in this class mean?
Sociology: the lectures are brutal, but the reading is half dec, even entertaining at parts
AND FINALLY MY FAVOURITE
Problems in American History: my teacher is welsh (sp?) and he is so interesting to listen to.. sometimes i forget to take note of everything he says because its so fascinating i just want to listen so i dont miss anything.. we're learning about the salem witch trials right now, and i can honestly say i absolutely love this class! i know someone in it too, which is a bonus :)

im thinking of switching my major to history because thats what im REALLY interested in, but lets be real.. what kind of job can i get with a history major.. next to nothing right? i really have to think this one over.. life decisions, no biggie.. aren't they the best?

on a side note,
my mom let me borrow the car for a couple days this week :)
we're going gokarting for amanda, mike & my dad's bdays tomorrow night - should be a thrill!
and wednesday its my dad's bday so we're meeting up for lunch half way between us i believe! im excited, i actually really value my family time now that its limited..
thursday i have intramural basketball, should be interesting.. i really need to get into shape...
friday im thinking about going to london, hopefully my girl doesnt have to go for basketball because shes sufferring of sickness and pain!
saturday is homecoming at school... but i dont know if im going to go..
nothing to really go to besides the game if you're not 19+..
and sunday.. i guess ill do some work for once? lol my bad

i have a busy week ahead of me.. and lots of reading to catch up on.. woohoo.. not.
but at least i have things to do.. and wont be sitting on the couch watch 8+ hours of tv a day like the past few weeks.. lol thats what university life really is
eat, sleep, read, drink & watch endless amounts of tv. - i cant say its hard getting used to that part.

i just realised how long this post is.. holy hell!
if you've read this far, dang thats impressive..

ONE LAST NOTE
guess who im beginning to skype on a regular basis?
probably the last person you would guess, but at the same time - most obvious because im this excited about it... call me pathetic, but im actually happy we're talking again.. theres been a lot of bullshit, but at the end of the day - i miss him.

HOW BOUT SOME BEATZ
who's that chick - rihanna ft david guetta
better than her - matisse ft akon
tappin' out - mario
relax - blake mcgrath
only girl (in the world) - rihanna
air - chief waKiL
driving me crazy - sam adams
without you - chris brown
hot mess - cobra starship
turn it up - mishon ft roscoe dash

some are old, some brand spankin' new - but all FAVES for sure

thats all for now folks, ill be posting on a regular basis now.. its a good way to get all my thoughts out!  thanks for the reading this far if you made it,
feel free to comment on the questions ive posed.. advice is much appreciated!

ya girl
tori xo